Thursday, June 27, 2013

My Goal for this Week: WALK!

Phew! It is hot outside! And I just got back from a walk which makes it seem even hotter. I don't notice the heat when I'm hibernating in my air-conditioned house ;)

Since I am trying my very hardest to get back into my workout routine slowly and not overdo it, and since it is so easy to make excuses,  I made a goal for myself to walk every day this week. So far, I'm three for three. YEA!

One day when I took off, thunderstorms were on the way and I felt six raindrops (yes, I counted them) before I got to the end of our street but I kept walking. It never did rain. How easy it would have been for me to say "oh, it's going to rain, I'd better go home" and turn around! Today, it's boiling hot but I wasn't going to let that ruin the walk. The older boys wanted to go to the school and play and the baby loves riding in the stroller so off we went!

How is it that kids don't seem to notice the heat? I'm sure I was like that once upon a time- kind of like swimming in the pool- I used to swim in the lake, no matter what temperature and now, I will only swim in a pool and only if it's over 85 degrees. What happens to us as we get older?!

I digress.

It was a beautiful day for a walk, quality time was spent with the kids, and I am one day closer to goal completed and stepping it up a notch with my workouts. I'm just glad I'm not the one who was walking with NINE kids, one as young as probably 15 months old. Yeah, I saw that. For real. Amazing!

What are your fitness goals? Do you find it hard to not make excuses? Be encouraged, you can do it! Just keep plugging away!

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Our First Year!

This past weekend, we celebrated our first wedding anniversary. In some ways, it is hard to believe it's only been a year. In others, it seems like it was just yesterday. Either way, it's been absolutely wonderful and I'm just thrilled!

First of all, divorce is HARD. Remarriage is HARD. Blending families is HARD. I am so thankful that Dan and I work so well together and have (mostly) figured out how to deal with these things. How did we do that? Communication, understanding, patience, to name a few. None of these things come easy to me BUT having been through what I've been through, I'm willing to do whatever it takes to make this work!

We've always dreamed together, had very open communication, and plenty of patience and understanding. We enjoy each other's company and there is nowhere we'd rather be than right by each other's side. I truly believe that as long as we continue to dream together, to talk to each other openly, to have patience and understanding, and a longing to just "be" with each other, that the next 50+ years will be at least as good as the first!

And you know what? I long for you to have this same sort of love. I pray every day that the people I care about can experience the same thing. That no one has to go through divorce to learn these very difficult lessons. Choose every day to love each other, keep dreaming together, communicating, and having patience and understanding. And while I'm no marriage counselor, I've been through plenty and I would love to chat with you if you need someone to talk to or if you need encouragement in your marriage.

Monday, June 24, 2013

Answers to the Question Why?

Last week, I created a Facebook page for my blog and decided I was going to do all of my posting from that account and not post from my personal account any more. I'm sure that left a lot of people scratching their heads but I did have good reason, I promise!

I have found that my personal page is too cluttered. I have way more friends than I should, I have like pages that clog up my news feed, etc. Not to mention that I was spending time on my blog and on my personal Facebook page so by combining them, I'm hoping to streamline. That's the main thing. Streamline.

I'm not crazy about it, however, I cannot interact with people on my page unless we are commenting on something that I've posted. I can't go to someone's page who has "liked" RedLizard's Nest and comment as I can with people I am friends with on my personal page.

So... after experimenting with it, I've decided not to go that route. I'm kind of bummed it didn't work out. I'll just have to find a better way to streamline. Thanks for bearing with me!

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Gettin' in the Groove

My dear, sweet baby will be six weeks old on Saturday. WOW. Looking back, that really went fast but I tell you what- the first four weeks felt like an eternity while I was in the middle of it. PHEW. I'm glad that's over! It took all I had in me but by golly, we made it.

I was thinking this morning that I actually feel like I'm starting to have a life again. Sure, I went on a couple of outings over the last few weeks- field trips and field day for the boys- and went to little league games but that is all I did. The rest of the time, I fed the baby, changed diapers, and slept. And slept some more. Here's some pics of our fun days:      

Aidan face planted in the sand dune while running down it.

He loves to get his picture taken! So cute!

Well, some of us had more fun than others.

 I was in survival mode. Which is why our vegetable gardens are in sad shape and never got planted this year. Those are all last year's shriveled up plants and weeds. Not a single good plant. And that picture doesn't do it justice.
Finally, though, I feel like I'm starting to live again. Posting on the blog, doing some stuff with ebay (have I told you about the appliance parts?!), and today I went to the greenhouse and bought some flowers to do a few planters. Not that I have a clue what I'm doing. But I can't have everything outside looking all dead and gross.

Dan and I also got to have a date night on Saturday. One of my oldest friends got married and we were going to take Emmett with us but decided it would probably be best to let grandma and grandpa watch him. It was a beautiful ceremony and the food was marvelous and I thoroughly enjoyed the time with my husband. My only regret is I didn't get pictures of us all spiffied up.

Anyway, Emmett has finally gotten to where he's just waking once during the night, sometime between 3 and 4am so I'm starting to feel like a human again. I'm not going to lie, it was a rough first month but we made it! Did I say that once already? Well, it deserves repeating!

And the end of another first (and hopefully another chance to get dressed up and get pics- um, hint hint, Dan ;) )  is coming up on the 22nd- our one year anniversary! I plan to blog about our first year and some of the trials and triumphs soon so stay tuned!

Monday, June 10, 2013

Choosing Peace

My eyes are still swollen and tired from the night I had last night. It was rough, I'm not going to lie. I've been having a really rough time lately and I finally allowed myself to open up to Dan and share my heart with him and talk through it. I knew in my head what was going on but sometimes, you just gotta get it OUT.

You know how we say things like "you make me feel ____________________" (happy, mad, sad, glad, etc.) Well, one of my friends once said no one makes you feel any certain way- how you feel is  up to you. And while that took me a little while to wrap my head around, it really is true. How we feel is a decision that only we can make for ourselves.

Dan asked me in our conversation, "so what is it that you want?" And I replied "peace." It's as simple as that. All I want is peace. I don't want a bigger house, a nicer car (Bigger, yes. Nicer, not necessarily.), a successful career, a nicer wardrobe- the list of all the possible "wants" could go on. All I want is peace.

So today, I'm choosing peace for myself. Looking to the giver of LIFE and finding peace.

In order to have that, I need to debunk some of the lies from that evil destroyer that I've let creep into my head. And since I'm a list maker, I'll list off the ones that come to mind first:

I'm all alone.
I'm ugly and fat.
I'm a bad mom/ wife/ sister/ daughter/ friend.
I'm cursed because of my divorce.
I have no future, no purpose; I'm worthless.

Wow. Really?! WHO thinks all these things about themselves?! Someone who has not been paying near enough attention to the Word of God, clearly, because the Word says:

"I am fearfully and wonderfully made." Psalm 139:14

"For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9

"For I know the plans I have for you... plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

"Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father's care. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. So don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows." Matthew 10:29-31

I blogged before about discerning a lie from the truth. It's really a good practice to get into and one I've simply gotten away from. I think the devil knew I was at a vulnerable time in my life and took advantage of that to bombard me with lies and me, in my weariness, didn't take time to question if it was the truth or a lie and I just started believing it all.

But not any more. Today I know the truth and I find peace in my Savior. And I hope that you do, too. Whatever is going on in our lives, no matter how blah or bleak or down right miserable it may seem, we can have peace where we are at and look to the future with hope!

If you'd like to share thoughts with me on this or need someone to talk to, feel free to comment below or email me. I want everyone to know the peace that is available to us if we just choose it for ourselves.