Tuesday, September 22, 2009

changing seasons

Fall is my favorite time of the year... beautiful colors, perfect temperatures, cool nights. Not to mention all of the yummy food! I just love it! I am looking forward to this fall but for me, it's not just about summer shifting into fall. It's also about me growing and learning and loving more and more each day, morphing into the person God has called me to be, carrying out His will for my life. While the leaves and grass begin to change colors and die, I feel so alive!

Aidan started kindergarten this year, that has been an adventure for all of us! Connor has decided he no longer needs naps so he and I spend our days relaxing and doing things that need to be done around the house. There will be no mention of "extra kids" in this post after this because well, there are none. I'm REALLY enjoying that! Of course I'm more than willing to help out friends here & there but as far as babysitting full time so that it infiltrates our lives, I'm done with that.

That said, I have applied for a position at a residential treatment facility. I am praying I get the job! I have always wanted to work with kids and more specifically, I've always wanted to be a social worker. When I was growing up, though, everyone told me how terrible and stressful being a social worker would be and I listened and shoved that aside and fell back on teaching. If you know me, you know I never really pursued that. Now I realize that's because I didn't really want to be a teacher. So, with this position, I would be able to get close to some social workers and the realm of social work and get my feet wet and see how it goes. With one child in school and the other on his way next fall, I figure this is a good time to start and see where it takes us.

There have been some big changes here for me this fall, and some are in the process. It's easy to feel overwhelmed but I just feel so blessed and so loved and I am anxious to see where this "season" takes me and my family and can't wait to live it out to God's glory!

Monday, February 2, 2009

13 by 31!

As my sister is approaching her 29th birthday and will be giving birth any day now, I was studying my calendar this morning and realized by 31st birthday is looming. Ahhh... a year older. I really don't mind it but alas, birthdays are always a good time for me to set a goal. Aidan's first birthday, Connor's first birthday, my 30th birthday, Connor's 2nd birthday, Aidan's 5th birthday. Each of those, I set a goal- to lose weight. I don't think I actually succeeded any of them but it was something to aim for. And now, I am 20 pounds lighter than I was last year so something must be working. I have hit a plateau, however. Time to step it up a notch. I have 13 pounds to lose until I am at my final goal. My 31st birthday is March 29th. I think that gives me plenty of time to ramp it up and get these last pounds gone. Of course it took me eight months to lose 20 so losing 13 in two months is going to be tough but I am sure I can do it! So here I go- 13 pounds gone by my 31st birthday!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

The Grind

The holidays are always a time of different schedules and routines and I haven't watched Tanner for almost two weeks. So this week, we're back at it. I was thinking on Monday, oh, back to the grind but that just sounds awful. Who wants to be ground? Not me! So I have set out to make our routine not a "grind". With some focus and prioritizing, tweaking of the schedule, and cutting out/down the things that rob me of my time, I'm feeling pretty on top of things today. My house is getting back in order, I'm spending more time with the kids, I'm working on the business, and checking things off my project to do list. Hopefully I will be able to keep this up throughout the year and make it a true lifestyle/household change!

Sunday, January 4, 2009


Oh my... I was just having a phone conversation with my mom, it ended with me hanging up on her. I TOLD her I was not going to argue with her and she wouldn't let it go... Here's the story: my dad had my siblings and I and our families over today. In the course of my conversation with my mom, that came up. She said "ugh, see, I don't see why he doesn't invite us over for things like that." I told her I didn't think he had to. So we began to debate. I don't think that when mom has all of us over, we should "have to" invite dad and vice versa. She gave me this line of crap about doing it for us kids. I told her that if we thought it was important, we'd suggest it but obviously us kids don't think it's that important and therefore, since it's about "us" and not her, to just let it go. She ended up telling me I need to pray about it and search my heart. I told her I didn't, that I know how I feel about it. And she said but what about how the Lord feels about it, that He tells us to love everyone. I said that we do love everyone but that doesn't mean that we ALL have to get together all the time. Her and my dad are divorced. The reality of that is that we are now two families, not one. That's when she told me that I needed to talk to a counselor. I then reminded her I said I wasn't going to argue about it and I hung up on her. Now I'm trying to resist the temptation of calling her back. I want to apologize for hanging up on her but at the same time, I know she'll only start rehashing the whole ordeal. UGH!